last night i had a dream:... it was kind of a game i was in. I didn't know what I am supposed to do. so i just went into a room. and there was a little girl. i talked to her and suddenly she attacked me with a knife and tried to kill me. and I was like:"hey! wait, no no no! please dont kill me. can't i just kill myself so you dont have to do this huh?" and she was like:"umm... okai!"
so i took the cutterthingi i just found and tried to cut my veins.
its so weird.... this feeling... when i cut my veins.... when i saw the blood. .... it was dripping down my whole body.
this feeling when i fell down to the floor... when everything went black....
this feeling.... it was .... just....
amazing! great! awesome!
WHY?! why did i like that feeling so much?!
am I suicidal???
am I insane??!
please!.... someone tell me whats wrong with me...D: